Senshi Suisei

2007-11-05T05:46:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone. Haven't been writing much on this blog. Nothing to say really. I'm right now in my technology class. It's boring cuz my teacher isn't that bright. Well, he's new to Kennedy too. So I couldn't possibly blame him. (Shhh! I don't like his teaching methods!) Lol, but I love Kennedy. Can't wait until my brother comes to Kennedy. It'll be somewhat better too. But I wonder if I'll still be going to Kennedy next year. My parents were yelling at me this weekend and they said they should've made me go to Catholic Central. Ugh, I don't want to see Dave. No way, but that one dude is really cute. XD Techonology class is really boring. There's like nothing to do. My class is so noisy today. And it's a monday morning. My project thing is due tomorrow but I'm really sick and tired of that work. Ugh, it's starting to piss me off a little bit. But i gtg. THe bell is about to ring. Byez!

2007-03-07T09:28:00.000-08:00

Konnichiwa! I am now out to lunch at a friend's house. Listening to Se7en Lose Control. I kind of like this song. Heheh, interesting. Don't like the video though. Hmm, weird but last night I was sitll out. Man, stupid science was ion my mind. But something else was too. Oh yeah, today is the famous Tsubasa Imai's Birthday! Happy Birthday Tsubasa-kun! Hmmm, what else do I have to say. Oh yeah, I wonder. Diana said some faked her, but which part. Keiko, what do you think? Got to go newayz. Byez ppls!

2007-01-23T07:16:00.000-08:00

Ohayougozaimasu! Hama Chisaki desu. Right now I'm in french class at school. I was supposed to be typing up my 'I have a dream too' assignment but I'm done. So since I'm done I'm going to just write an entry. I'm not sure if it's really fate. But this morning I woke up and talked to my dad about which high school I should attend. I'm in the Walkerville district but had an intention of going to Kennedy. There is no possibility to go to Massey. So, my dad and I chose Walkerville. I then used the washroom. After, I checked my hama.kitagawa@gmail.com account. There was a new e-mail. Something about high schools and career choosing. My choices were Walkerville, St. Josephs, Massey, or Riverside. I guess now I'm heading for a model/actress/singer. Heh, I wonder what life would be like being someone else. Okay well, I'm out of time. Bye bye peoples!

2006-12-06T19:30:00.000-08:00

Konbanwa minna-san, Hama Chisaki desu. I'm supposed to be doing homework right now but I want to write down my feelings. I don't know who I'm supposed to be anymore, being Chisaki was really fun while it lasted. Now I'm going to change into my old self. When winter breaks starts I will start changing myself completely. When returning back to Prince Edward I will be a new person. My true self I suppose. Being Chisaki for a while was just a test to see how life would be like if I was another person. It was really fun, but most people like me how I was before. Acting like Chisaki was more fun then being my old self, but I jsut can't go on being her. I have many things to do as Ami. So, I guess everyone should get ready for the old self. Shy, quite, polite, classy, etc. You probably know who I was then. The progress of being a soldier is really slow, I'm going to try my best over the winter break to be who I really am. Or who I really should be. Back to now the boring life I used to have, fun isn't everything I guess. Being your real self is much better then a copy. Now I understand what the true meaning is. No matter how hard I try to be someone else, it doesn't feel as good being who I really am. Cheer me on my friends, and I will too. I hope all the soldiers will be successful enough and be theirselves after the winter break. A new year, a new you. Please accept the new me, or my true self. I know it'll be hard being who I am straight foward, but I know. It's for the best. Friends, family, soldiers, and education are the fours things I will put first in my life. Without every single acpect of these four categories I wouldn't be able to go on. These four things are the most important to me. One more saying before I leave, be yourself. Stop hidding underneath all the pain you're going through being someone else. You would realize it feels like you're not carrying as much weight when you're yourself. Trust me, reach inside, find the truth. Find yourself, and shine with all your might. Please accept the real me, I will shine. Even if I have to alone, for you people I will... remember, the original is better the a copy.

Signed,
Hama Chisaki-san(also called Rika or Chima)

P.S. Love you always my friends and family.

2006-12-01T15:02:00.000-08:00

What is wrong with today? I can't even go see the person I really miss, why? I just hate my family why can't I go??? Telling them lies and I get a big consequence. Telling them the stupid truth will get me into humongous trouble. WHAT DO THEY WANT!? I haven't bursted like thisin a long time, but why? Tell me god, I just want to go somewhere. WHY!? Please, let me go... I don't know why I have to but I will have to. I know this is not as a good reason but I just have to! Why can't anyone understand me instead of just saying this and that! My does my mom care so muc about my grandma and not anyone else! I can't understand it! Tell me how and why! And can't anyone keeps secrets! Help, someone help... just because of my grandma my mom has changed. Every weekend my grandma comes, and when she does my mom doesn't care about anyone else. All she does is cook all day for her. I mean, why does she have to cook. Can't we ever have family day without my grandma evn be mentioned! I don't know why my tears are falling, tell me. Why can't I see him!? I JUST TELL THE TRUTH! I like this guy and I walk to talk to him and see him. Okay, truthful enough. Please god, let me go. I really need to go, I love him! PLEASE! Why, is this really meant to be. Why can't it come true. I've finally found a person I really loved. But now, my mom and her mom are forbidding me. Why can't I ever go to that place! I really promise, I won't ever lie ever again about going to place and actually be somewhere else. I just want to see him. Tell what is wrong, god help me. Do you even know how I feel? God! Do you see me suffering like this? Do you really see all of this? If you do, why don,t you do something about this! PLEASE! I have to go! HELP, please god. I really need your help. If you can't help me then no one else can. I don't know if this is true love but I want to find out. Please, anyone help me. Do I deserve this? Is it really what I deserve? I don't know what to do now. It's 20 minutes past 6:00pm. I was supposed to go at 6:00pm and I believe Ayaka-chan has already told him that we'll be there at this time. I suppose he thought we were liars then. Stupid me! What have I've done, but right now. There's only two words I can think of. That is HELP ME...

Love is pain...

2006-11-13T16:32:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone! I feel very happy right now but there are some things I'm not satisfied with. But this is to my friend Keiko. When are we meeting up to practice the dance for Miyuki's birthday party. We all don't know the dance. Well the majority don't. Well tell me soon. I need to get the first one memorized. Ugh oh! Gtg everyone. Talk to you people later!!!!

2006-10-20T13:11:00.000-07:00

Oh no! Why did you have to come to the school today? Oh great, tomorow is going to rain and I'm going back to the stupid vietnamese lessons again.Just great for a day like tomorrow. I just wished you came yesterday instead of today. Thanks(kidding but still angry). I should just calm down and forget it. Well got to go eat dinner(pizza! Unhealthy, ewww.)

2006-10-08T16:53:00.000-07:00

:'( I thought the same when having to believe this but now I know. It's the truth. I always thought, out of all these billions of people. Why me? Now I know, it's a gift you're a chosen one. So am I and Keiko-chan. I hope you read this and don't use your stubborness against me once. You are now my friend and you know what I'll turn into when you leave my side. If you've chosen to be my friend then please don't leave. You've heard what has happen between Masuo-san and me. I got really cruel. You don't want me to act that way to you. I just want everything to go right and us having fun. We're friends and nothing will change it.

My tears will shed, my eyes will burn, my heart will break, but my soul will shine because I have you.

C'est La Vie, Hama Chisaki-san

2006-10-06T17:25:00.000-07:00

Today is my last day going on the computer pretty much. Starting from tomorrow I won't be online as long as I always do or be online as much. I really don't want this change but my dad's being laid off for about a few weeks to a month. I hope it's only like a week or two. I don't want it to be too long since some of you guys I don't even see. So it'll be long until we probably chat again. Well, I guess this is the last of it. Some of you people I do see face to face but never talk to. Well now you can' talk to me online either. I will still try to be online atleast once a week just for a bit since I know there going to be times my dad won't be in his room or on the computer.

2006-10-03T19:36:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow it our first field trip in grade eight! I'm kind of exited. I wonder if anything willl go wrong but this is weird but Masuo-san, give me luck and don't come to the school. Onengai! Anyways, I'm kind of looking forward to tomorrow so please make everything go right and make a time of fun for the past month of work. I wonder what it's going to be like at Point Pelee. I think it'll be fun but I might not like the soggyness from the rain. I like clear days to go hiking with. It's fun time lol. Just so anyone knows. This is the not me-ish blog. That's means I act in all kinds of moods. But that doesn't mean that's always me. Lol, right now I'm exited for the trip even though I go to Point Pelee often. Lol, I love this class! Wish me luck on my trip!

-Hama Chisaki san desu.

2006-09-13T19:10:00.000-07:00

Today was a weird day. It rained just right now or before now. I was showering when hearing the thunder outside which just sounded like music to my ears I never thought it was raining but I kind of wanted to rain somehow. Well it did rain which satisfied me enough for today. Today a friend and me got in a little fight somehow. I didn't much like the fight but it made everything more clear for me how I am supposed to be alone and have not many people around me. I was used to that until now and I think I should go back to what I was before. I shouldn't have changed. I was the perfect person and the person I really loved. Everything was really going fine and I was more open but ever since I was friends with this Jane. Everything changed. Somehow it all changed, I myself had to change purposely.

2006-09-12T19:25:00.000-07:00

Konbanwa minna-san, Chisaki desu. I've tried this website and I tried to get myself a laptop of my own. I wonder if it works. I'll let you people know if it does because if it does I want you people to be able to one of your own. I will post the website on here if you want to try it before I tell if it works for me. Anyways here: http://laptops.freepay.com/?r=32855378. You have to do three steps in order to get to your laptop. And it will be delivered I believe. If any of you people out there know where to get or how to get a Blackberry Pearl 8100 then please tell. I'm looking for one to get for myself as a Christmas or New Years present. If any of you are wondering what is a Blackberry Pearl 8100, well it's a cell phone with many other features like instant messaging, e-mail checking/replying, photos, and web browsing. Well got to go now. I will add more some other time. And please, if you are reading this blog. Try to get yourself a free laptop.

2006-09-11T19:37:00.000-07:00

Nothing much happening, everything is pretty much normal for now. I wonder what else is going to happen to this life. Anyways, I've made a decision. I'm going to try to save money to buy myself a laptop and a Blackberry device later on to use. I'll go towards buying the Blackberry device and then the laptop. I might get the laptop for free much I'll try my best to get what I need. GANBARIMASU! CHISAKI-CHAN GA HONTO NI GABANTE! I will try to work and get money and then buy what I'll need before I get to high school and have almost everything before going to high school. I'll be big but I'll get through it. By myself, on my own. Me only, helping myself. I will get to the point I want to on my own. Please do no interfear. I wish I can atleast make my biggest wish come true by myself without anyone getting in my way or slowing me down. Thank-you, god.

2006-09-08T18:32:00.000-07:00

Konbanwa minna-san, not many people will be reading this blog unless I let them. Which are specific people that I say. Please do not read on if I never did say or tell you to read this blog.

I have many things to say maybe just to myself or maybe someone out there unknown. There are many things I want to just to talk to myself but am really lazy to write on paper. I just don't know what to do, there are many things to worry about. I have all this senshi stuff that occured about a year ago. Which still a partner of mine doesn't believe me and thinks I all made it up. By me of course. Doushite? She was the one who wanted to be my friend and onw this happens and she doesn,t believe me. What kind of friend are you anyways? I'm the one who should be suspecting you for making it all up. You were the one who knew my password and the one who started to be my friend. Now that I think about it the one who seems like making it up is you. You were the one who always had the e-mails and everything would always happen to you. People always believe you because your just pretty. But now it seems like I'm one of those people who hate you. Whatever, I don't want to talk about this anymore. I hope I did move. Not to the street Southwood Lake but to the other side of the world if I have to. I just don't want to talk anymore. I just want to be alone with my kind of people. Which there are none. I'll just probably be alone with myselk. Doushite this has to happen. It has messed up my whole life. Now without friends I get messed up inside and once if anyones asks me do I have any friends I would burst into tears if I didn't have them. It's just that they influenced me way too much that now without them I burst into poisonous tears harming me. I just don't like what has happened to me the last two years. WHy can't you forget me. I don't want you in my life anymore. It has been way too much trouble. I can say so myself you probably faked it but since you are my friend I tried not to think it was you. But you went ahead and thought it was me straight away. I think this friendship won't go on any longer. I hope not either. Just if you read this you know what I think inside. And hope you understand a bit more. But if not then don't even mention this blog at all. Goodbye to all the people out there who are reading this but not my friend.