Senshi Suisei

Konbanwa minna-san, Hama Chisaki desu. I'm supposed to be doing homework right now but I want to write down my feelings. I don't know who I'm supposed to be anymore, being Chisaki was really fun while it lasted. Now I'm going to change into my old self. When winter breaks starts I will start changing myself completely. When returning back to Prince Edward I will be a new person. My true self I suppose. Being Chisaki for a while was just a test to see how life would be like if I was another person. It was really fun, but most people like me how I was before. Acting like Chisaki was more fun then being my old self, but I jsut can't go on being her. I have many things to do as Ami. So, I guess everyone should get ready for the old self. Shy, quite, polite, classy, etc. You probably know who I was then. The progress of being a soldier is really slow, I'm going to try my best over the winter break to be who I really am. Or who I really should be. Back to now the boring life I used to have, fun isn't everything I guess. Being your real self is much better then a copy. Now I understand what the true meaning is. No matter how hard I try to be someone else, it doesn't feel as good being who I really am. Cheer me on my friends, and I will too. I hope all the soldiers will be successful enough and be theirselves after the winter break. A new year, a new you. Please accept the new me, or my true self. I know it'll be hard being who I am straight foward, but I know. It's for the best. Friends, family, soldiers, and education are the fours things I will put first in my life. Without every single acpect of these four categories I wouldn't be able to go on. These four things are the most important to me. One more saying before I leave, be yourself. Stop hidding underneath all the pain you're going through being someone else. You would realize it feels like you're not carrying as much weight when you're yourself. Trust me, reach inside, find the truth. Find yourself, and shine with all your might. Please accept the real me, I will shine. Even if I have to alone, for you people I will... remember, the original is better the a copy.

Signed,
Hama Chisaki-san(also called Rika or Chima)

P.S. Love you always my friends and family.

Labels: Being myself

posted by Mimi Yung @ 7:30 PM