Senshi Suisei

Hello everyone. Haven't been writing much on this blog. Nothing to say really. I'm right now in my technology class. It's boring cuz my teacher isn't that bright. Well, he's new to Kennedy too. So I couldn't possibly blame him. (Shhh! I don't like his teaching methods!) Lol, but I love Kennedy. Can't wait until my brother comes to Kennedy. It'll be somewhat better too. But I wonder if I'll still be going to Kennedy next year. My parents were yelling at me this weekend and they said they should've made me go to Catholic Central. Ugh, I don't want to see Dave. No way, but that one dude is really cute. XD Techonology class is really boring. There's like nothing to do. My class is so noisy today. And it's a monday morning. My project thing is due tomorrow but I'm really sick and tired of that work. Ugh, it's starting to piss me off a little bit. But i gtg. THe bell is about to ring. Byez!

posted by Mimi Yung @ 5:46 AM 0 Comments

Konnichiwa! I am now out to lunch at a friend's house. Listening to Se7en Lose Control. I kind of like this song. Heheh, interesting. Don't like the video though. Hmm, weird but last night I was sitll out. Man, stupid science was ion my mind. But something else was too. Oh yeah, today is the famous Tsubasa Imai's Birthday! Happy Birthday Tsubasa-kun! Hmmm, what else do I have to say. Oh yeah, I wonder. Diana said some faked her, but which part. Keiko, what do you think? Got to go newayz. Byez ppls!

posted by Mimi Yung @ 9:28 AM 0 Comments

Ohayougozaimasu! Hama Chisaki desu. Right now I'm in french class at school. I was supposed to be typing up my 'I have a dream too' assignment but I'm done. So since I'm done I'm going to just write an entry. I'm not sure if it's really fate. But this morning I woke up and talked to my dad about which high school I should attend. I'm in the Walkerville district but had an intention of going to Kennedy. There is no possibility to go to Massey. So, my dad and I chose Walkerville. I then used the washroom. After, I checked my hama.kitagawa@gmail.com account. There was a new e-mail. Something about high schools and career choosing. My choices were Walkerville, St. Josephs, Massey, or Riverside. I guess now I'm heading for a model/actress/singer. Heh, I wonder what life would be like being someone else. Okay well, I'm out of time. Bye bye peoples!

posted by Mimi Yung @ 7:16 AM 0 Comments

Konbanwa minna-san, Hama Chisaki desu. I'm supposed to be doing homework right now but I want to write down my feelings. I don't know who I'm supposed to be anymore, being Chisaki was really fun while it lasted. Now I'm going to change into my old self. When winter breaks starts I will start changing myself completely. When returning back to Prince Edward I will be a new person. My true self I suppose. Being Chisaki for a while was just a test to see how life would be like if I was another person. It was really fun, but most people like me how I was before. Acting like Chisaki was more fun then being my old self, but I jsut can't go on being her. I have many things to do as Ami. So, I guess everyone should get ready for the old self. Shy, quite, polite, classy, etc. You probably know who I was then. The progress of being a soldier is really slow, I'm going to try my best over the winter break to be who I really am. Or who I really should be. Back to now the boring life I used to have, fun isn't everything I guess. Being your real self is much better then a copy. Now I understand what the true meaning is. No matter how hard I try to be someone else, it doesn't feel as good being who I really am. Cheer me on my friends, and I will too. I hope all the soldiers will be successful enough and be theirselves after the winter break. A new year, a new you. Please accept the new me, or my true self. I know it'll be hard being who I am straight foward, but I know. It's for the best. Friends, family, soldiers, and education are the fours things I will put first in my life. Without every single acpect of these four categories I wouldn't be able to go on. These four things are the most important to me. One more saying before I leave, be yourself. Stop hidding underneath all the pain you're going through being someone else. You would realize it feels like you're not carrying as much weight when you're yourself. Trust me, reach inside, find the truth. Find yourself, and shine with all your might. Please accept the real me, I will shine. Even if I have to alone, for you people I will... remember, the original is better the a copy.

Signed,
Hama Chisaki-san(also called Rika or Chima)

P.S. Love you always my friends and family.

Labels: Being myself

posted by Mimi Yung @ 7:30 PM 0 Comments

What is wrong with today? I can't even go see the person I really miss, why? I just hate my family why can't I go??? Telling them lies and I get a big consequence. Telling them the stupid truth will get me into humongous trouble. WHAT DO THEY WANT!? I haven't bursted like thisin a long time, but why? Tell me god, I just want to go somewhere. WHY!? Please, let me go... I don't know why I have to but I will have to. I know this is not as a good reason but I just have to! Why can't anyone understand me instead of just saying this and that! My does my mom care so muc about my grandma and not anyone else! I can't understand it! Tell me how and why! And can't anyone keeps secrets! Help, someone help... just because of my grandma my mom has changed. Every weekend my grandma comes, and when she does my mom doesn't care about anyone else. All she does is cook all day for her. I mean, why does she have to cook. Can't we ever have family day without my grandma evn be mentioned! I don't know why my tears are falling, tell me. Why can't I see him!? I JUST TELL THE TRUTH! I like this guy and I walk to talk to him and see him. Okay, truthful enough. Please god, let me go. I really need to go, I love him! PLEASE! Why, is this really meant to be. Why can't it come true. I've finally found a person I really loved. But now, my mom and her mom are forbidding me. Why can't I ever go to that place! I really promise, I won't ever lie ever again about going to place and actually be somewhere else. I just want to see him. Tell what is wrong, god help me. Do you even know how I feel? God! Do you see me suffering like this? Do you really see all of this? If you do, why don,t you do something about this! PLEASE! I have to go! HELP, please god. I really need your help. If you can't help me then no one else can. I don't know if this is true love but I want to find out. Please, anyone help me. Do I deserve this? Is it really what I deserve? I don't know what to do now. It's 20 minutes past 6:00pm. I was supposed to go at 6:00pm and I believe Ayaka-chan has already told him that we'll be there at this time. I suppose he thought we were liars then. Stupid me! What have I've done, but right now. There's only two words I can think of. That is HELP ME...

Love is pain...

posted by Mimi Yung @ 3:02 PM 0 Comments

Hello everyone! I feel very happy right now but there are some things I'm not satisfied with. But this is to my friend Keiko. When are we meeting up to practice the dance for Miyuki's birthday party. We all don't know the dance. Well the majority don't. Well tell me soon. I need to get the first one memorized. Ugh oh! Gtg everyone. Talk to you people later!!!!

posted by Mimi Yung @ 4:32 PM 0 Comments

Oh no! Why did you have to come to the school today? Oh great, tomorow is going to rain and I'm going back to the stupid vietnamese lessons again.Just great for a day like tomorrow. I just wished you came yesterday instead of today. Thanks(kidding but still angry). I should just calm down and forget it. Well got to go eat dinner(pizza! Unhealthy, ewww.)

posted by Mimi Yung @ 1:11 PM 0 Comments